my morning didn’t start off as well as I’d liked! I didn’t want to exercise and I was moody, my toddler was a lot first thing! But I got up and moved my body anyway and as always Ruth’s words were just what helped me along and got me through it. Then I got this wave of energy telling me I needed to bake. And soooo here we are, my first attempt at a baguette! It’s more like regular sandwhich bread. But, I am SO proud of myself for transmuting my moody energy into something as beautiful &yummy! ✨🥖🩷

Hi everyone!! I have been so MIA here recently but I’m jumping back in with a win before I take class today. This year has been so busy for me at work, especially this past month; I’m carrying way more than my normal workload and the client I’m working for is up against a bunch of nonnegotiable deadlines so it has been a lot of working at top speed all week. As of yesterday, I am now 99% done with the major projects I’m carrying (yay!) and I’m just so proud of myself for getting through this busy time in a reasonably healthy way. I was suffering from severe burnout and depression for a long time after grad school and the loss of a close friend… I’m so grateful I had a great support system and the chance to step back and recover, but also it feels so good to be able to push myself and work hard again while still feeling good 🥹 RPS was truly a sizable portion of that support system; no one had ever told me exercising from bed was good enough and I cannot explain how much that changed things for me. Feeling sappy today I guess 😂 but I just hung up my merch card/stickers on the bulletin in my walk in closet turned Pilates studio and just felt so grateful I had to share. The new colors even match my previously purchased decorations, meant to be! Love you all 💜🦋💜

Got a sack for my big blue ball 😂🤣

How RPS is altering my brain:

For about two weeks after joining, I would look through the beginner options (I’m 95% sedentary) and think wow I can’t even do those. Then I did Party 4 U. I couldn’t do the whole thing. But I got to thinking. SO FUCKING WHAT?! So what???!!!! I was moving my body and enjoying it for the first time EVER. I tuned into Ruth’s energy and voice and just went for it. I’ll no longer be holding myself back. I’ll just pick a class I’m drawn to and let’s gooooo! I might make it 5 minutes or 5 seconds but who the fuck cares?! Not me. Not anymore.

So after a year of my childhood dog passing, my bf and I came across this big boy. We found him as a stray and did all protocols to see if he had a home. Sadly no one claimed him, so we decided to take him in. Meet Zero, he is a mix of poodle. I have been binge watching Caesar The Dog Whisperer to help lay some routines and rules. 🐾🩷

I had no idea what channel to put this under but he is a major win for me 😊

Just sharing a small win..when I was younger, I loved running! Not in any competitive way/in sports. I would just run around, race my siblings, etc. I injured my knee at 13, and just stopped running. Ever since then, I have told myself that I dont like running since I fatigue so easily. This past week, I've gone on 3 jogs. Very short jogs, but I still did it. I was actually craving it. It was a serious surprise to me that I wanted to run. I really believe that RPS lead me to this! These classes have really been such great lessons in pushing through and getting past that mental block of "I can't" or "this is too difficult". So I wanted to say thank you!!! 🫶

I have just submitted my PhD thesis. It took me a little over 6 years to complete! I was so hesitant to press the submit button, thinking that I still hadn't done enough! That there must still be mistakes. I am almost afraid to be finally free. Sitting with those feelings now. I wouldn't have got through the very dark days during the final years of my PhD without RPS in my life. Thank you Ruth + all the bad b's, you rebuilt me 🥹🥰

I got a 15 day streak today! This is a big deal because the past few months I was feeling really low, stressed, anxious and maintaining structures that nourished me felt very difficult. I started a Reiki Level 1 course, and something shifted. Today marks day 16/21 of my post attunement self-practice. I have never meditated for more than 10 minutes at a time or daily. To sit with myself for 30+ minutes is a BIG DEAL. My stressors have not changed, but what felt difficult to do, became a bit easier when I met myself with presence and compassion. I started a practice of writing down all the ways I show up for myself in a day. I’ve been connecting to 5 year old me and she asked for stickers. The goal is not - how many stickers can I get today?! Rather its a visual reminder for me to see that even on days when I feel extremely low and fatigued, I’m still showing up for myself. I’m learning that self discipline can be rooted in joy, love, and compassion. I’ve never been more excited to make my bed y’all! 🤣 & now when I DON’T make my bed, I’m not making up stories about it, I look at all the other ways I showed up. Sharing this in case it is helpful for anyone wading through fog right now. Sending big love 💕