good afternoon bad b's!

i lost my streak four days ago and am experiencing guilt regarding that. for some reason i feel so much shame in admitting this and for restarting my routine. perfectionism is a disease i swear.

this new year has been dragging me by my ponytail. ive been dealing with a lot of moving/new year/relationship stressors and in that ive completely let go of everything that helped me feel good. i stopped moving, eating well, and drinking water. i legit feel like the mucinex monster. 

anyways, because of the new challenge coming (yay!), i am going to focus on relaxing videos that help me feel present and cozy. so, today i am making a promise to myself to do shoulder melt and neck relief!

i hope you guys are staying safe out in the world and taking care of you <3

Update: 3 months post successful hoe phase 

A few months back, I requested the best classes to assist with improvement in riding. First of all, thank you ladies for the suggestions. I listened and took all of the classes. They were incredibly helpful. 

All jokes aside, I was having a ton of issues surrounding sex and being present in my body after a traumatic break up in 2024/ 6 year relationship. I spent most of that year putting myself back together. 2025 was where I focused on the healing work. Needless to say, I was finally able to enjoy intimacy again WITH added benefits thanks to Sensualaties and Ruth. 

While I initially thought of this as just a "hoe phase," it was really the beginning of enjoying sex, letting myself feel safe, confident and learning about myself. 🥹

The situation with the man was catastrophic (no shock there) but I'll take the win regardless. 

Happy New Year everyone 🌹