I am so protective of my RPS hoodie! Someone put a greasy pizza hand on my shoulder while I was wearing it and I freaked out..maybe I should try relaxing more and trust stain remover..!

I loved reading this Monique Lupu. Thanks for sharing. I'm really struggling myself to get back into it. I think sometimes I continue to want to feel this emotional pain once I'm back here because I know it so well. Treating myself to movement is what I need but I feel frozen. I'm going to have to break this very soon..perhaps today!

Monique Lupu Massive well done! You are encouraging me to get started with this challenge. I have no routine these days being unemployed and living out of a bag at family/friends but I've just bought a yoga mat and some blocks to have something to carry on while I don't have any of my things!

Sorry I didn't end up joining you on this challenge as I said I would but you've smashed it on your own! Well done! I also struggle over the Christmas period, so I totally get it! I often feel lost and disconnected, even more so this year! It's somewhat comforting to know I'm not alone! Also sending hugs! ❤️

Sorry about your grandpa 😢 and well done for still taking care of you xx

Monique Lupu no worries at all! I do agree that he is cowardly. He hasn't been brave and broken through that resistance he has. He could have fully committed. I gave him 6 years to do so. It means so much to be able to connect with someone who has gone through the exact same thing. Thank you. I'm now sick with tonsilitis but hopefully my body will calm down after this and I can properly get back into RPS, but don't have any of my props or weights 😭

luna elise thank you ❤️❤️

I love this! Thanks for sharing. I love how things can come to us in dreams and shape our day. You certainly brightened my day today. I am leaning into laughter as much as I can at the moment. I realise how little I've been laughing over many years now, or showing excitement. Even while feeling sad I'm allowing people to encourage laughter and bring out my old self that is somewhere.

luna elise thanks for this beautiful message. I'm really grateful for all the support and advice. It makes me feel far less lonely in all of this. I have gone to a place in the UK where I have a little cottage (that was my grandmothers) and over the years have built up a friendship group here each time I visit my dad. I have been so grateful for the support I have received here from people from all ages and walks of life. I'm taking a year out to just be around people and be part of a community where everyone takes care of one another. I've been craving deep connections for a while. I'm so happy I have this here in RPS too. At the moment I am in freeze mode and struggling to move and get started with anything, hopefully I will get there soon. Xx

Ruth Brenza thanks for this lovely message and for sharing your experience. It's a good question - I actually spoke to his twin sister and she said to me "if I was your friend and not his sister I would tell you to move on". I'm sure I'd give this same advice to a friend. I am so empathetic I feel sad that he has these deep rooted problems often more than how I have been treated. I'm making an effort to be selfish and try to for once make a decision for me only. Xx