I've been a little absent lately. I was traveling for 6 weeks and then when I got home from Australia via Singapore, London, Olso to the north of Norway I found my boyfriend (of 6 years) to be very cold with me. I asked him had he missed me and why he wasn't showing me any love, to which he replied "I didn't want you to come home" and "I've just never loved you the way I'm supposed to" among many other hurtful things. So after 2 hours of arriving in the middle of the night he finished our relationship and sent me off the next morning on a flight back down to London, leaving behind all my belongings to deal with later and my cat. When I arrived in London he messaged me telling me he had made a "terrible mistake" it's been almost a week now and I just can't forgive him for what he did to me (and it's not the first time). So I'm asking for some advice to anyone out there who has experienced anything similar and given my age now I really can't mess about. I've waited 6 years for him to commit to me and want the things I desire in life - a family and just generally to feel wanted. I feel so hurt and haven't been able to settle to get back into RPS because I'm living out of a bag now for the foreseeable future. Maybe I need to do some emo beats.